Life is so confusing...

I haven't posted a blog in a really really long time. There are many reasons for this...1. I am going through a divorce and didn't want to burden you will the boring details. 2. I have so much crap running around in my head, I couldn't put what I was feeling into words. (not sure if I can yet).

The boys are great. Okay, that's not entirely true. They have been fighting like wild animals lately. They are currently grounded for a week--school and sports (that's it). So far, its been okay. They said some things to me this weekend that really hurt, so I am sticking to my guns with this punishment.

Jacob: He is now taller than his mother. I am 5'4" and he is 5'5". That scares me--why is my premie growing up so fast? Makes me crazy. He is on the middle school baseball team--first base. He is really loving it. Jake just finished middle school basketball and he hated it--I think because the coach wasn't all that great.

Gabriel: He is getting bigger every day. I look at him and it makes me want to cry. My last baby is growing up way too fast. I was upset last night and he wiped away my tears and was patting my back. I hope he never loses his sweet personality. Of course, he can be mean, but when I really need it, he is there with a hug and kiss.

I am so confused about my life. I guess that's because I'm trying to figure out who I am without Reggie. He doesn't make it easy to leave him, but I'm trying. Its hard to cut yourself off from someone you have been married to for 13 years.

School is okay. I still want to teach a younger age group. Ninth grade is not making me happy any more. I'm calling another school district today (I interviewed a while back). I have been driving about 25 minutes from the apartment to the kids' school, then another 20-25 minutes to my work. It makes me really tired and almost always late. At least I don't have students first period. The driving really sucks, but I want the boys to be able to stay at their school.

Okay, so there is more that I want to say, but I still can't get it out...so, I'll stop now.

So, wish me luck and pray for us that things work out.

Grrrr.

You know, I am so tired of people always hurting other people. Why do people think just because they "blog" about something that it makes it okay to say hurtful things? At least when I complain, you can' t figure out exactly what I am talking about unless I am talking about the kids I teach or my own immediate family.

Well, today is my birthday. My students were really bad today! I am so tired and irritated. I have a ton of schoolwork for my graduate class and I just don't want to do it. I also have a ton of schoolwork to do for my job. Don't want to do that either. Oh well. My very best friend, Patty called me tonight and wow! I was so glad she did. You know, when you get older and move away, people get so involved with LIFE. I miss her so much. She reminded me--we've been friends for almost 30 years. wow. Well, that's all for now...Bye all...

Monday Again

I am surrounded by ignorance today. Why is it that teenagers think it is okay to act stupid? I swear, you say something and they act like they just don't understand. They push and push and then wonder why you are always mad. Grrr. You give them directions and even when you read the directions and remind them of the directions, they still don't do things right.



I am taking a graduate class called Psychology in Education. It is very very boring. I am working ahead so when my other class starts in 2 weeks, I will not fall behind.

At home, life sucks. No, I don't have much to say that is good today. Sorry. The boys had sports all weekend. Gabriel's football team won the mid season superbowl. Jacob played in a weekend tournament. They won 2 out of the 4 games. The games were all they way in Easley (which is a little over an hour from the house.)

So, I have a lot going on right now and it is all personal problems. I don't want to bore you and list the problems, but if you could pray for me that I make the right decisions to solve my problems, I would be greatly appreciative.

New School Year

A lot of stuff has happened since my last post. Well, duh--the entire summer. I didn't think my summer needed to be on the blog. My summer was great except for a few things. We were in GA a lot, we went to FL, and to Myrtle Beach. Even though school has started, I miss having my boys all day. I won't mention the bad parts of the summer...

Well, school has started again. Jacob is a 7th grader this year--YIKES! He is excited because he got all of the classes he wanted and is in honors Math. He told me the other day that he wasn't sure if he liked the class because he had to work harder--that's funny. He isn't used to having to open the book to get help. Gabe is in the 2nd grade. My baby is growing up way too fast. He is sooo smart. He has been reading books at a much higher reading level--and understanding them. He is also great at Math--he doesn't have to think--the answers seem to just come to him. Weird.

My classes are okay except for a couple of kids I want to strangle. I hope this is the last time I have to teach 9th grade. I start my Master's program here in about a week. I'm excited. I am getting certified in elementary ed. That will let me teach K-6 grade. I can already teach 7-12 grade. I want to go down to 5th grade I think. I'm tired of drama!!

So, other than being exhausted, all is well. Gabe started football yesterday and is playing tackle football--scary for mom, but good for him.

Hope all is well with you...

Well, I finally made it to the last day of school. I wasn't sure if I could, but I made it...I am now sitting in my last class of this school year. They leave in 1 hour and 24 minutes. Thank goodness.

I want to do a happy dance...

Everything is graded and there isn't much left for me to do, so I have no idea what I am going to do this afternoon (I have to be here until after 3pm). I also have to be here Monday and Tuesday. I guess when I am done I will be reading a book.

So, have a happy day!

It is finally May. I wasn't sure if I would make it, but I did. I only have 18 more days of school left--yaa hoo!!

The boys are playing an enormous amount of baseball. We are at the field 2xs per week and sometimes all weekend. I love baseball, but I'm going crazy.

Jacob with his braces.

Pictures of the boys playing baseball...

I'm doing okay on Weight Watchers. I lost 9 pounds in 2 weeks, but I had a busy baseball weekend and now I have to weigh in tonight--I hope I didn't gain. YUCK.

That's about all to report because I have about 60 research papers to grade--FUN!

Oh, and Happy Mother's Day!!

Crazy People

I don't have a lot of time to write today because work makes me have no life. I am so behind in grading papers. Oh well. They don't turn stuff in, so I guess we are even. There is a lot of drama going on in the family. I'm not going to explain because I just don't want to get into it--again.

It has been said that my family is crazy and I think we all need a swift kick in the butt!!!

Crazy person

I am so ready for summer!! I am tired of school and need a break. I started Weight Watchers last week (again). I am doing really good and hopefully by the time summer gets here, my hard work will pay off.

What I feel like....

What I want to look like...

Angie is trying to find a townhouse to buy. She bid on one, but the owners took a higher bid. I told her that I would have had the two bidders fight for the house and I would get more money, but they didn't. Hopefully she will have luck finding another one that she likes. She is bummed and I don't blame her--she was so excited about this one.

My husband is back to work. He is feeling better after being off his foot for a few days. He is driving me crazy (as usual). He was home for 4 days and claims that he did all of the laundry. When I took a shower last night, there weren't any clean towels and I'm wearing my last pair of clean pants. What's up with that???

Our dirty clothes??

Jacob will be 12 next Wednesday--I'm hoping that he gets over the "tween" crap because he is definitely acting like a teenager.